Jayapataka Swami: It seems like a personal question,and usually for personal questions, one can write me an email. But usually, if one feels they have lost their devotional spirit, to guru and Vaiṣṇavas, and the Lords, NitāiGaurāṅga, maybe due to offences. So somehow one should get forgiven for such aparādhas. But, to know certainly, you will have to write to me.
26-June-2020 SRI DHAM MAYAPAUR, INDIA